as you can probably tell, im stopping this blog
it is the best decision for me and i am very happy at the moment and i dont want to push it with unnecessary obligations
i love you all and i hope yall have a great rest of the year
Graduated high school.
Collected something really stupid.
Smoked a cigarette.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone.
Failed a class.
Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone
Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. or snowboarding Been sailing. Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Been to jail.
Dangerously close to being in jail.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Had an online diary.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Swam with dolphins.
Taken a lie detector test.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you shouldn’t have. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Gone surfing in California.
Had a hamster/guinea pig. Pet a wild animal. Used a credit card. Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll.
Know someone with HIV or AIDS.
Made-out with someone.
Played on a sports team.
Snuck out of the house.
Swore at a teacher. Gone laser tagging.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been on the TV. French braided.
Driven a car. Performed in front of an audience.
Been in love
Been on a train.
Seen a ghost.
Been to Mexico.
Crashed a car.
Been kissed in the rain.
Made an 11:11 wish. Drank alcohol. Forwarded a chain letter. Made a mistake.
In the perspectives of diaries.
why is it so much easier for me to do this online than to write in a journal?
i’ve thought about this for a little bit, and i can come to one conclusion: i am under the influence of judgement.
from the very beginnings of my life, i have been judged. i dont want you to pity me or think of that for less than my true meaning when i say that. i dont mean i have been judged harshly. sometimes i have, but that’s just part of the process.
i mean that everything we do in life seems to have some sort of jury to be put through. in school, we seek to impress our teachers. in work, our employers. in social media, the public. in private, our gods.
for me, at least, everything i have ever done has been commented on.
i dont think this is a bad thing.
but, we soon thrive on other people. we thrive on other people to be with us and help us, even by simply being there.
so, i think, the reason i love this online thing so much is because it helps me knowing that someone is out there listening. whether or not you read it is up to you, but the main idea is that my ideas are getting to someone, not rotting away in some journal.
while writing this, i also realized that part of the reason i like this better is for the pure fear of my diary being found by one of my close friends or my parents.
maybe thats the reason; maybe i want my ideas to be known, but by someone who cant judge me harshly if they know them.
in other news, im cleaning out my sticky notes (there’s over 100) on my computer :)
tell a friend.
hello my people! today i would like to tell you about something that makes the world go round.
i dont know about you, but i can’t ever fully move on from feeling guilty without forgiveness.
this week, i went to confession. see that thing i told you about a while back that made me feel all ashamed and what not, yeah, i finally confessed it. and i know that you’re like “well you’re just saying it to one person youre not doing anything else why did you even go”
well, my comrades, this is why: closure. i feel like whenever i am guilty, no matter how many times i tell myself its okay, i always have to get some sort of closure. I think mostly, its because i dont want to hurt other people and i need to make sure that i am not hurting others, right?
well, regardless of whatever im feeling, i am back. i will try my very best to post daily. i have some very big news that i will tell you all when its finalized but im so excited for this summer!!!!!!!!!
i am indeed alive.
its been a crazy few weeks and i have a few huge decisions coming up in the next month of my life, so if i dont get to post every day for a little while (especially the next week leading up to spring break (ha 3 or more big assessments per day)) dont hate me!
love you all :)
i am deeply sorry to crush all of your souls, but i am going to be taking a hiatus until march 3rd.
i go to school at 7 every morning and dont get home until 10 oclock at night to start my homework, and by the time i finish, it’s the next day.
i have so much going on so i decided it would be better to take a hiatus then make “HI im alive still yay!!” posts every day
End this blogging challenge during the most “romantic” month of the year by writing about your favorite romantic movie - comedy and tragedy alike.
ahh. my favorite romcom has to be valentines day. i love ashton kutcher and the way the story weaves together makes everything so much cooler sigh its just……………………. its great! i recommend it :)
If you could only get one tattoo, what tattoo would you get and why? Talk about the tattoos you have now you already have one!
i would get a little cross on my left hand like demi lovato has. i think its beautiful and it reminds me of my faith which makes me very happy.
just like this but on my left hand by my thumb!
Review a movie, book, food, or product you’ve either hated or loved.
Okay, i just saw this movie about 20 minutes ago, so the ideas are a little fresh in my mind and a little scattered so bear with me (sp?)
anyways, this movie was amazing. id give it four out of five stars. it was so so so so SO sO SO SO SO good. SO GOOD.
i loved it within the first 2 minutes because im a sucker for guys who arent yell-in-your-face attractive and beautiful accents. this man, alden ehrenreich, happened to have both.
I honestly think that his personality and his whole aura really sold me on the movie. he is so… cute. i dont know how to describe it. not as in a “wow that guys cute” kind of way, but a “wow, he has a really cute personality that makes me want to pinch his cheeks and shoot myself in the leg at the same time” kind of way. you feel?
this movie is basically about this girl, lena, who moves to town and all shit starts to break loose, aka lightening and wind and windows breaking idk stuff like that. the townspeople think that she’s possessed by the devil but then ethan is like “nah she cool she cool” and starts hanging with her. then he falls for her and she tells him that shes a castor, which is basically a witch. then she tells him that she will find out if shes a light or dark castor on her 16th birthday. and all hell breaks loose about them being together and all this stuff goes down
i dont want to give it away but it was so good
like so good
like really good
like so good
anyways i loved this movie because of all those things but also because it had some really good quotes and music. i love good quotes from movies that can be related to so many things in my life, and this movie had a lot of them. not to mention a good part of religiousness which made me happy. and although my brother claims that the movie has a lot of stuff missing (from what ive told him) i think that it was good regardless.
please go see it, i think it was way worth the 2 hours spent in the theater i will definitely go see it again. see you there?
Day 11 : 02/15
Anything you like!
hmm. i think today i will share the prologue of a story i’m writing :)
here it is!
Some say it started with a bang.
Some say it started with a god.
Some say it started with a string.
But there are some things that they don’t say. They don’t mention how, each day, many universes are born. Some start something beautiful. Some hide out, waiting to surprise you when you least expect it. Some just give up on you. And some consume your every thought until you completely depend on them. Then, they leave you.
He doesn’t remember me now. He may never remember, unless someone somewhere brings me up. Sometimes, in the back of his mind, he might find me. He might dwell on the thought, for just a second. He might smile. But, most likely, he’ll move on. He’ll say it was a mere dalliance. That our love was so insignificant that he believes I’ve full-heartedly moved on, too.
But I haven’t. I don’t think I ever will.
And this is the story telling why.